PuRE rANt

I haven't blogged in yonks....mainly because I have been busy at work.....and where has that got me?????? nowhere very quickly....so this is my rant. For stupid legal reason I can't give much away about my job title, and need concrete anonymity, but you maybe able to take a point from my ramble.......or maybe not!!!!!

I work in a front line service for the Government......which seems to mean, that despite the amount of effort I put into doing my bit for humanity, I am always in line for a good ol' ambush every so often!!!

Now I am all up for confrontation......my life experience made me this way! However, what angers me most is that the confrontation is never even. I am never allowed to answer back, and those that tend to lead the ambush are only too aware of this.

Firstly, there is the demand from the leader not to make assumptions.....who then seeks to criticise my practice using just that. The assumption that I have no idea what they are experiencing. On a personal level, that have no fucking knowledge of my life and what I have experienced and nor do they have a right to know. What they didn't know is that I new very well what they are going through, but I used my experience to change my life in a different way.

Secondly, I didn't appreciate the assumption, widely promoted by press about my profession, which is hideously over publicised when a mistake is made. Yet, when I look at the team around me, there is not one person that you can accuse of being in the job for any other reason aside from a being committed to helping others, protecting the vulnerable and putting other lives excruciatingly first before their own. Mistakes are made in any profession, but there is not one tabloid story I can think of which rewards the good work that is achieved. And it isn't expected. Yet we carry on.

A profession where 'burn out' is acknowledged as something which we all have to go through. No matter what the people on the receiving end of our service feel, I can't stress enough that WE DON'T STOP. When I wake up, I think of what I need to do, when I drive to work I think of how I am going to achieve it, when i get to work, I battle my way to the target, and on the way home, I bash myself up about how I didn't get time to do that extra thing. It never stops, it is never enough, however much we put in, people want more.....when I eat dinner, I talk the worries through with my partner and when I am in bed, I think of how I can improve on the next time.

I am not alone in this. This is what is expected from both the Government and from the public. Perhaps if we went on strike like some professionals, we would actually be noticed.

How can it be OK, for me to enter a public area, to be verbally and physically attacked? this is acceptable? This is so acceptable that we are expected by both the public and the authorities to swallow our fears and return the following week to finish what we started before we were rudely interrupted by a kick in the teeth.

I have worked hard both personally and professionally for many years, I have gone through gruelling tiers of training like you wouldn't believe and I will always accept an unfair fight. To me, in the face of that above.....the fight is actually weighted in my direction because of their ignorance.

Game on.....